January 1st was the 6-month mark since Craig’s passing. The grief seems to be more intense these weeks. My analytical brain keeps trying to figure out why. Maybe denial is simply beginning to wear off and acceptance sink in! I’ve been seeing the social worker at the Gathering Place every couple of weeks, and that helps. I also began hosting and leading a grief support group for local members of the Bahá’í Faith. We had 9 of us on January 3, our first session. It seemed to be helpful for all. It’s challenging for me to host, lead, and participate though! However, one of the friends led a visualization section, so that helped. And someone else will be helping to facilitate some future sessions.
Workwise, there has been movement forward. I’m taking two courses. One is to help me create articles that will include links back to my website for people to purchase e-books. The other is to help me create and market e-books. The Marriage Transformation website is being re-done and simplified. And e-book creation is underway. I have a new coaching client – business coaching this time rather than my other client, who is relationship coaching. I’ve also applied to work for a temporary employment service, although no assignments yet. I passed all their tests, though!
For months, I’ve emotionally struggled to put together query letters and a book proposal to approach literary agents about Empowered Healing, the book that lays out Craig’s approach to cancer along with my caregiving approach. Every time I tried to work on it, the emotions would overcome me. So, I’m delighted to report that I sent queries off to 12 agents and one has asked for a copy of the book proposal. It went off in the mail to him this week. So, your prayers for its journey will be appreciated. This was a major accomplishment.
I’ve been getting involved in more spiritual service, but the more I’m visible, the more I’m being asked to do. My body is telling me I’m back trying too hard and too fast and too much. The story of my life! That was one of Craig’s primary responsibilities as my husband – helping me stay moderate and balanced. It’s hard without him. I feel deeply tired still easily, so I’m reminding myself of the goals the Dec. 6th consultation gave me and crossing off the additional ones I was adding in.
Yesterday two friends from the support group at The Gathering Place and I spend a few hours at the Home and Garden Show. We had fun, enjoyed the spring flowers, got caught up with our grieving journeys, and managed to spend only a little money. (See photos; This is Bonnie, Susanne, and Bev)
There’s also been a day spent with visiting my friend Holly, an afternoon babysitting our grandson, friends here to visit, study circles, spirituality support group, Bahá’í meetings, doing end-of-year finances for personal and business, etc. So, I’m following through with not hibernating/retreating too much. One day this week my daughter-in-law Christina recruited me to be a model for her manicure and pedicure tests at cosmetology school. Check out the purple nails in the photo! But, now I’m noticing a need for more downtime. Always a balancing act…good thing a Florida trip is coming up soon!
Love,
Susanne
Workwise, there has been movement forward. I’m taking two courses. One is to help me create articles that will include links back to my website for people to purchase e-books. The other is to help me create and market e-books. The Marriage Transformation website is being re-done and simplified. And e-book creation is underway. I have a new coaching client – business coaching this time rather than my other client, who is relationship coaching. I’ve also applied to work for a temporary employment service, although no assignments yet. I passed all their tests, though!
For months, I’ve emotionally struggled to put together query letters and a book proposal to approach literary agents about Empowered Healing, the book that lays out Craig’s approach to cancer along with my caregiving approach. Every time I tried to work on it, the emotions would overcome me. So, I’m delighted to report that I sent queries off to 12 agents and one has asked for a copy of the book proposal. It went off in the mail to him this week. So, your prayers for its journey will be appreciated. This was a major accomplishment.
I’ve been getting involved in more spiritual service, but the more I’m visible, the more I’m being asked to do. My body is telling me I’m back trying too hard and too fast and too much. The story of my life! That was one of Craig’s primary responsibilities as my husband – helping me stay moderate and balanced. It’s hard without him. I feel deeply tired still easily, so I’m reminding myself of the goals the Dec. 6th consultation gave me and crossing off the additional ones I was adding in.
Yesterday two friends from the support group at The Gathering Place and I spend a few hours at the Home and Garden Show. We had fun, enjoyed the spring flowers, got caught up with our grieving journeys, and managed to spend only a little money. (See photos; This is Bonnie, Susanne, and Bev)
There’s also been a day spent with visiting my friend Holly, an afternoon babysitting our grandson, friends here to visit, study circles, spirituality support group, Bahá’í meetings, doing end-of-year finances for personal and business, etc. So, I’m following through with not hibernating/retreating too much. One day this week my daughter-in-law Christina recruited me to be a model for her manicure and pedicure tests at cosmetology school. Check out the purple nails in the photo! But, now I’m noticing a need for more downtime. Always a balancing act…good thing a Florida trip is coming up soon!
Love,
Susanne
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