First a brief news update: On February 14th, I had a lovely visit with my stepdaughter Michelle, her husband Hooman, and our granddaughter Karida. Karida spent the night by herself for the first time since Thanksgiving of 2007, so we had some fun. (see photo) The Bahá’í Grief Support Group met again on February 21st, and we were joined by Barbara Trauger-Querry, a Bahá’í who was also our art therapist through Hospice of the Western Reserve. She led us through expressive painting, which was great. On the 22nd, I had a lovely two-hour visit with my friend Brenda Hanks Maxwell Zografov while her husband Alex slept. They were driving from Winnipeg, Manitoba to Halifax, Nova Scotia via Cleveland while on the way back to their home in Bulgaria!
Michelle and Karida
I traveled to Chicago for the last weekend of February. I stayed with my friend Vicki (formerly Schmotzer) Carl in Evanston. We talked non-stop all weekend, got mistaken for being sisters, went shopping, went to a Bahá’í Ayyám-i-Há party, went to the Bahá’í House of Worship in Wilmette, watched a documentary about British royalty and Windsor Castle, and generally had a great time. (see photos)
We spent a lot of time exploring my career path and what will bring stability and happiness. It is clear that staying in the relationship/marriage field is a great direction for me, and I’m now in the preparation stage for re-launching it. The books that are percolating will be excellent both for helping me become more systematic in my coaching approach and creating a constant flow of clients. I will be focusing on marriage preparation, marriage, and couples preparing for life after death and helping people connect with their souls to create successful, enduring matehood. The book project that has now launched of having marriage experts giving input on marriage preparation will be a vital piece in moving my career forward. [Thank you Craig for that flash of inspiration!]
Physically I’ve accomplished a huge amount of the recovery from the two years of caregiving and these eight months of grieving. However, there is still a challenge with fatigue, and Julie is indicating that I still need restoration time and downtime in the sun over the next couple of months, so I’m making arrangements to go back south again for awhile. This is to be a time of becoming autonomous from Craig and finding our own purposes and missions. He will always be available to me if I call on him, but we are moving towards our own lives. The intense period of grief is beginning to ease and will be helped to end by taking some more time off. Julie shared that I was carrying around a lot of fear in my chest about way too much and it’s causing some thymus gland swelling. So, I’ve been getting help to release the fears in the days since the session. Unfortunately, she confirmed that I need to be avoiding wheat, dairy, and sugar – all the fun foods!
So, more transitions in process, but some support and direction for going through them. I always appreciate the confidence and certainty that I gain through these sessions.
While I wait until housing in Florida opens up for me, I’m buried in book projects, shipping orders to customers, canceling out of various energy-challenging commitments, enjoying the 6th day in a row of sunshine in Cleveland, rejoicing because the green shoots of early flowers are coming up, going for walks, swimming, continuing to take an e-book marketing course, and occasionally remembering to breathe!
Much love,
Susanne
Michelle and KaridaI traveled to Chicago for the last weekend of February. I stayed with my friend Vicki (formerly Schmotzer) Carl in Evanston. We talked non-stop all weekend, got mistaken for being sisters, went shopping, went to a Bahá’í Ayyám-i-Há party, went to the Bahá’í House of Worship in Wilmette, watched a documentary about British royalty and Windsor Castle, and generally had a great time. (see photos)
Part of the reason for the trip to Chicago was to meet with Julie Walker, which I did for an intense 2-hour session on the 26th. It’s always hard to know quite how to describe Julie’s gift – medical intuitive, healer, psychic, spiritual guide, etc. Anyway, she has been an ongoing part of my journey, and it was time to connect. I taped the session and have 11 pages of handwritten notes from listening to it, so this will just be a brief summary!
We began by connecting with Craig, of course. She said his soul now is very refined – like a diamond with no coal left. He has an agenda and is very focused on bringing me towards what I need, having perceived that I have missed some things in my first two marriages. So, in addition to providing me with flashes of inspiration and getting me “spruced up” with divine assistance, he also wants me to find a new mate and actually has someone in mind (who I apparently don’t already know!). So, I’m being encouraged to be in openness mode, prepare myself, and experience whoever comes in my path! [Which prompted me to stop wearing my wedding and engagement rings…all of this sooner than I’d anticipated, and of course triggering some transition-related grief as well. And some resistance…which I’m working through… Julie commented that spirit is saying I need to find a new man but my body is saying, hell no! My heart is unsure and bruised, so I need a bit more time to acclimate to the idea.]
We spent a lot of time exploring my career path and what will bring stability and happiness. It is clear that staying in the relationship/marriage field is a great direction for me, and I’m now in the preparation stage for re-launching it. The books that are percolating will be excellent both for helping me become more systematic in my coaching approach and creating a constant flow of clients. I will be focusing on marriage preparation, marriage, and couples preparing for life after death and helping people connect with their souls to create successful, enduring matehood. The book project that has now launched of having marriage experts giving input on marriage preparation will be a vital piece in moving my career forward. [Thank you Craig for that flash of inspiration!]
Physically I’ve accomplished a huge amount of the recovery from the two years of caregiving and these eight months of grieving. However, there is still a challenge with fatigue, and Julie is indicating that I still need restoration time and downtime in the sun over the next couple of months, so I’m making arrangements to go back south again for awhile. This is to be a time of becoming autonomous from Craig and finding our own purposes and missions. He will always be available to me if I call on him, but we are moving towards our own lives. The intense period of grief is beginning to ease and will be helped to end by taking some more time off. Julie shared that I was carrying around a lot of fear in my chest about way too much and it’s causing some thymus gland swelling. So, I’ve been getting help to release the fears in the days since the session. Unfortunately, she confirmed that I need to be avoiding wheat, dairy, and sugar – all the fun foods!
So, more transitions in process, but some support and direction for going through them. I always appreciate the confidence and certainty that I gain through these sessions.
While I wait until housing in Florida opens up for me, I’m buried in book projects, shipping orders to customers, canceling out of various energy-challenging commitments, enjoying the 6th day in a row of sunshine in Cleveland, rejoicing because the green shoots of early flowers are coming up, going for walks, swimming, continuing to take an e-book marketing course, and occasionally remembering to breathe!
Much love,
Susanne
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